“Ooo Life.. It’s bigger.. It’s bigger than you..” says R.E.M in their famous song “Losing my religion”.. Really, life is bigger than us. Because the creator and designer of the life can see the whole picture and its smallest parts at the same time. But we, poor humanbeings, limited by our senses, can only see what our senses are presenting to us. We are one of the smallest creatures of the universe.. Our situation according to the universe is just like the situation of the ant according to the world.. We are that ant.. And we can see, understand or foresee nothing… The things we see are only some illusions.. However we are conscious creatures and we must understand what is happening to us.. And we must do it by combining our poor senses and confused mind.. This combination sometimes can be very dangerous.. But only with the light of God, humanbeing can understand some truths about life…Why i am telling all of those philosophic stuffs? Becoz i am about to decide about some serious subjects related to my life.. I am about to give direction to my life into a one-way street… I will decide and go… There will be no return.. It will exactly change my life.. It will exactly effect my entire existence… I hope it will be in a good manner.. I hope i can shape and change my life with success and decorate it with happiness and peace… What is this decision..? This is a secret for now… Only one person knows it.. She knows herself.. She is my saviour.. She gave me her hands while i was drowning in a dark ocean.. I was about to die in the guagmire of my loneliness… But she was trying to reach me for a long time… I didn’t see her.. I was not able to respond and give my hands to her… However she was patient.. She was serious and always waited for the right time.. After some while of betweenity, i noticed her shining face and i hugged her… Maybe i couldn’t see her, becoz she was sparkling so much… Sometimes it can make u blind… For example you can’t look at the sun directly.. Becoz it is shining too much and it may make u blind… If you look, after a while u can’t see anything… Finally, i saw her.. After that time, i started to stare at her constantly… I was addicted.. I was mesmerized… I am glad i met her.. Now i want to change my and her life.. If we have the enough courage to do that.. We will be able to do… I am very hopeful… So she is…
It was really unplanned… I am not a “plan person”… I don’t often do plans.. So it was spontaneous.. Fitting to me so much.. The way i like it..
That’s why i am saying “life is bigger than us”… Becoz it can’t be planned.. It is full of surprises.. Just we have to look carefully and be aware of it..
Whatever happens, i am glad i am doing it… And i am ok with the results.. I have the courage to face it.. I am ready.. I am here.. More than everytime…